Funny how some themes/trends in life are seemingly circular. Ideas and beliefs I gave up now have tremendous influence in my daily activities. Optimism gets downtrodden by premature cynicism, only to invite a resurgence in idealism. Maybe I just never before understood why I believed what I did, and by living on the other side, I have an understood reason behind each purpose I undertake. But living on the other side has proven useful as I have separated some chaff from my wheat.