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I’m having one of those days. You know, the ones where everything you try to do blows up in your face? The ones where you can’t think rationally, think coherently, act normally? The ones where even your thoughts turn against you?

Yeah, it’s one of those. I don’t know what is throwing me off; maybe it’s malnutrition, maybe it’s the cup of coffee I drank this morning, maybe it’s getting up at 10 (slept at 2), or maybe it’s from a bunch of stress that has finally caught up to me. Whatever it is, it’s put a major hamper on my day.

So if I saw you today and I acted a little wierd, that’s why.

My daily wrapup

1. I’m gonna try to post every day in October from now on. Maybe I’ll be able to do this, maybe not. I’m actually interested to see how many ‘substantial’ posts I can come up with and compare it to a normal month.. like September.

2. I’m stuck on the ‘Situation Analysis’ part of my communications plan. Who would have thought this would have been so hard?

3. I learned a great deal about our current economic situation, and I’ll post about it later. But just real quick, here are some sites/sources of info that have helped me out: http://tinyurl.com/522vhx and http://www.cosmictap.com/mortgage-mess-101/. The latter comes from someone I’ve been following on Twitter and FriendFeed. He usually has pretty good commentary on the current economic crisis.

So far

I don’t know how many times I’ve said it so far, but I think it bears repeating: this term is finally in full swing.

With one week down, I think I have a pretty good feel for how my classes work this term. And to top it off, I’m on top of all my classes. And by on top, I mean taking charge of projects and leading discussions. It’s a pretty good feeling, especially since some of the projects I’m doing can be used in my portfolio.

I’m involved in PRSSA this term, and I really don’t know what to say about it. It’s kind of odd not having a leadership position or having the same amount of knowledge about the group as I had with ISA. Sometimes, I wish I could revert back to ISA because I’m more comfortable there, but I know that going back would be counterintuitive. Besides, there are many opportunities for me to grow as a professional in PRSSA that I’d be foolish if I didn’t go.

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Gettin’ All Learned’ n’ stuff

I have more free time this term than I’ve had in a while. My schedule is as follows:

Monday
8:30-10:00 Work @ ITC

Tuesday
10:00-11:50 Public Relations Planning and Problems
12:00-1:20 International Public Relations

Wednesday
8:30-10:00 Work @ ITC
11:00 – 2:00 Work @ ITC
6:00 – 7:00 (pm) PRSSA Meetings

Thursday
10:00 – 11:50 Public Relations Planning and Problems
12:00 – 1:20 International Public Relations
7:00 – 9:50 Tokyo Cyberpunk (I know, I’m pretty much taking an Anime class. Oh how far I’ve fallen.)

Friday
8:30-10:00 Work @ ITC
11:00 – 2:00 Work @ ITC
4:00 – 6:00 You can probably find me at Coffee Hour

Being that this is my senior year, it’s nice that I’m not too tied down. I need the time to think and reflect on where I am in life and where I want to go. And while I think the downtime is excruciatingly uneventful, I know one day I’ll look back on this time with envy.

This is a perfect opportunity for the found $10 tag.

Back to School special

Usually, there is such a stark contrast between summer/winter/spring break for me that the transition between the two has been violently turbulent. This term, however, the transition from summer break to fall term has been soft and relatively peaceful.

I guess it’s because I’ve had time to let loose before school started. Between working for ODF and starting fall term, I had a month to kill, and I feel like I really killed it. Between football games, trips to Vancouver (BC!) and hanging out with my friends, I’ve found myself back in the UO/Eugene niche that I’d abandon for 2 months.

And just in time too. With classes starting tomorrow, I need to stay on top of my game in terms of attentiveness and preparation. Where in years past, a sense of restlessness kept getting in the way of me performing to my potential level of excellence, I took my time during break to indulge in that restlessness in order to better focus on my school work and my future career. I now feel more focused and prepared for this year than I’ve ever felt for any school year, and I feel that I need that now more than I ever have.

Excuse Me

“So pardon me while I burst
into flames.
I’ve had enough of the world
and its people’s mindless games.
So pardon me while I burn
and rise above the flame.
Pardon me, pardon me…
I’ll never be the same!”

Pardon Me by Incubus

I’ve noticed a significant change in my attidtude lately. There’s one part of me that is much more antagonistic and harsh than I usually am. And then there’s this other part who is more willing to forgive and reconnect with people who I intentionally disassociated with out of anger or obligation to those they wronged.

And I’ve noticed that these conflicting sides apply to certain people. With some people, I’ve been less and less willing to overlook things they do that drive me crazy. I’ve been much more likely than normal to be rude, offensive or intentionally standoffish to them. Right now, I’m more likely to tell someone off if I don’t like them than I’ve ever been in my entire life.

It’s bothering me. I’m scared because I’m on the verge of burning some important bridges or destroying some friendships that I know I would regret losing. Maybe it’s because this is my last year at UO and I only want to spend my precious time the way I want to spend it. I know the reason is somehow rooted in selfishness (and perhaps a bit of laziness), and that it’s gonna somehow mess things up for me this year, but I almost feel as if I can’t help it.

Having said that, I’ve noticed that I’m connecting pretty well with an overwhelming majority of my old aquaintances… in fact, in many cases, I’ve turned some aquaintances into friends. I think I’m better at getting along with people I meet for the first time and I think I’m also better at being a resource for my friends instead of just being someone who takes up space when we hang out.